I want to let you in on a little secret… we are all going to die. Death is one of the only constants in life, along with taxes… We all know tax day is April 15 but none of us know the date that we will die. Some of us still have 50 or more years but some of us might not have 1 more. Think about that for a minute, some of us might not be alive for tax day 2020 even. What do you think people will say about you or remember about you? What would you say about your life?
A part of the Grainger Smith song “Everybody Lives” says it perfectly… “A lesson can’t be learned unless there’s a mistake and a heart can never love if it’s too afraid to break.” At one point while I was going through chemo and looking at my first big surgery, I started to think about what happened if I died. It started with thinking about what I would want for the funeral and grave site but eventually went to what stories would people tell and what would folks say. Had I done something to better everyone else’s lives? Were there good memories that made people laugh? Would my daughter remember me?
How often did I not do something because I was afraid of making a mistake? Having never been around babies before my daughter was born, I made plenty of mistakes!! But there were more that I could have made. What about just enjoying the small things in life like being stuck behind a tractor on the road? I really wish it didn’t take me laying in a hospital bed to learn this. Instead of seeing the hints God gives me about things, He used a 2×4 to my head to get my attention this time.
I know that I want to fit as much life into my time as I can. I don’t want to miss chances to play with my daughter, or have a date night with my wife, or help someone that is in need. If I somehow found out that I would die tomorrow, I want to make sure that I have no regrets.